Falling off the wagon

Written on dec 20
Dear lock blog,

It took me six weeks to come up with the courage to write another blog. Its mostly because I'm ashamed of myself for what I've done. In the previous blogs, I was so happy to have my new locks. And I was doing fine for a while. But then I met this guy that I was really feeling. I felt that if I took down my locks and got a perm that I would look more attractive to him.

I had a weak moment and I went out and got the things I needed to take down my locks. BUT I didn't get the perm. Thank god!!!

Well I took down my locks again! And boy was it a task! I didn't realize how locked up my hair was until I tried combing them out. And when I was done, I was upset.. I looked at my hair and saw how kinky it was. I couldn't get a comb thru it to save my life and my hair was hurting like hell!!!

I still wanted to get the perm but then I realized I was short on cash! It cost 60$ to get a perm and cut at the salon. I pretty much gave up! I'm glad my impatience and the fact that I'm cheap kept me from making a stupid decision.. Once my hair is permed there's no turning back.. If I wanted my locks back I would have to cut my permed hair and start fresh! I'm glad it didn't get to that point.

And to think I did all of this to impress some guy!! I thought he would like me if I looked better physically but that wasn't the case.. In the end I put my locks back in.. I did it because i missed the fact that I didn't have to put a comb thru my hair.. I missed my little locks.

And when I showed my hair to the guy for the first time... He didn't trip!! In fact he thought I looked cute.. I'm jus upset that I felt that insecure in order to impress a guy that was feeling me from the start!

The take down was on november 22.. And I put them back in the 23rd.. Todays the december 20th... And its been a month of bliss..
I think I'm experiencing the lock stages at an excelleration now than ever cuz my locks are defintiely frizzing up quickly... I haven't washed my hair in a month.. I have been twisting it with JMLs firm wax and water.. Ill wash my hair in two more weeks..

This time around I wanted my locks to be thicker.. Sick of thin locks now.. Idk why I just am... I have to get around to counting them soon.. they thick but not too thick.. Jus like my first set.. I think they will be locked by the summer of course.. By june the earliest...

Until then ima keep washing and twisting.. And wearing hats and scarves.. I need to find some gems for my locks to give them more spice...

And as for me and the guy I've was crazY about... Well he and I are exclusive now.. His name is Jeff! We're in crazy in love.. Its nice to find sum1 that's into me because of who I am rather than how I look...

Although our future together seems uncertain I know what is... I kno that my locks are here to stay...

Talk to you in a few days!!! :)
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